I just spent about an hour on Facebook and I don’t even need to refuse to feel bad about it: there is no need for guilt here. I just closed 8 Jisho.org tabs and it’s causing no anxiety. Why? Because the JLPT is finished for another 7 months. I sat N1 again yesterday and can safely say that in some ways I did better than last time. I know this because yesterday I read the whole grammar section, which in July I didn’t have time to do, having done the reading first.
Speaking of the JLPT, one of the reading texts was about writing. The writer – a novelist, by the sounds? – was writing about the word 好き ‘like’ and saying he/she couldn’t honestly say that they liked writing, nor that they disliked it. In one section they were saying that the writing process helped them form and organise thoughts, and to discover what they were really thinking. The thoughts were floating around in some sort of nebula and it was the act of putting them to paper that helped them understand. Well, that’s the answer I chose for that question. Hope it was right. And that’s a bit what this post is going to be like.
Can you guess what I’ve been doing since my last post? Well, it has involved several textbooks, one full-time job, tens if not hundreds of episodes of News 7 on NHK, several seasonal coffees from Starbucks and Tullys, a few of Ryoma-den (the story of Sakamoto Ryoma), a couple of Japanese books and a couple of English language audiobooks, one and a half episodes of the Dollop (wtf Ronald Reagan), about AUD$1900 worth of taxes, vegetarian gyoza, and some frustrating bootlaces and less frustrating shoe polish.
I am leaving Japan. This time in three weeks I will be in Australia again. To be honest, this gives me quite mixed feelings for several reasons, in no particular order and I truly mean no particular order at all:
- I will be in Australia where there’s no shame in asking for time off. I think. Wait, I’ve never worked full time in Australia. Is there shame in asking for time off?
- I will be in the same country as most of my family and Australia-living friends, able to see them (more) often. Not that much more for the ones who live in Brisbane. Who are mostly from Melbourne, I’ll have you know. Why did you move to Brisvegas?
- My other half will still be here until his partner visa approved – and it had better be approved, it cost the better part of 4 years of savings on what I’ve earned in Japan.
- I will be leaving some craziness and also some rather endearing personalities at my current job.
- Need to find a new job, which will undoubtedly have new craziness and hopefully minimum toxicity.
- I’m going back to uni. Will the course be any good? Will I be any good? Where am I going to park to get to the station? How will I deal with morning train anxiety?
- How am I going to keep up my Japanese when I’m suddenly surrounded by English everywhere?
- How am I going to find who/what I’m looking for when I can’t see over and around other people?
- I’m going to miss my friends in Japan. I’m already at a distance with those in Tohoku, but the ones in Hiroshima I see often – some more often than others of course – and there are some special ones in Tokyo and I know I can always hop on a shinkansen and be there the same day. Even to Tohoku it’s a short plane and moderate bus/train, possible over a weekend.
- I’m going to be an aunty!
- I’m going to miss Japanese customer service.
- I’m not going to miss the plastic and packaging.
- Am I going to miss the weather people telling me what to wear/have with me the next day?
OK. Before I leave, there are about a kjillion things to do. Now that the JLPT is done, I can start actually doing them without any ‘aagh is it OK to use this time to do this?’ worries.
- Clean the apartment
- Go to the city office and report that I’m leaving the country. Get a certificate that says so and has the dates of when I was living at this address
- Photograph/scan, translate, edit and upload the last 6 months’ worth of bills, documents, photos together etc. to My ImmiAccount for the partner visa application
- Buy an electronic dictionary
- Cancel phone contract
- Clean the balcony
- Buy Japanese books and send them, with other books, to Australia for reading practice
- Send home some clothes and stuff
- Get rid of everything else
- What to do with thank you messages from students in past schools? It’s the sort of thing I only look at when I’m thinking of throwing them away.
- Clean out work desk
- Finish the project I’ve been working on over the last year and a half to help new teachers at work
You get the picture. And now, it’s time for me to get ready for work.
I know I always say this, but I think it’s more realistic this time to expect that I’m going to post again soon. Thanks for reading.